Ramadhan 2012

Pertama kali seumur hidup aku, aku rasakan indahnya Ramadhan.

Selama ini, apa yang kurasa, tak lain hanya leceh yang amat sangat.
Lapar dahaga penat dan lain-lain.
Tak boleh korek telinga and stuffs.
Err kenapa selama aku hidup 19 tahun, rasanya begitu?

"GERAMNYA BILA TERINGAT BALIK!"

Alhamdulillah segalanya berubah pada tahun ini.

Apakah ini hidayah? Aku dapat rasakan nikmat yang tidak terhingga sepanjang mengikuti ibadah ini.
Aku tidak pernah penat dalam bulan Ramadhan 2012 ini. Aku tidak ditimpa masalah yang melemahkan semangat, malah menguatkan lagi semangat.

Lapar dan dahaga, of course. Tetapi langsung tidak penat.
Jujurnya, sehingga hari ini, ianya adalah hari-hari tanpa sahur.


But.. .
Kenapa aku tak terbangun.. ? =_='
Terbangun mesti waktu azan Subuh berkumandang.

"TOO LATE!"

Memandangkan esok adalah hari Ramadhan 2012 yang terakhir,
I'll make sure I'll get up!

"Aku tak mahu makan daging sendiri #iykwim"

Lebih-lebih lagi, aku di Shah Alam bersama family. Of course, how can I miss this moment!

Anyways, dear Ramadhan, aku setia menanti kamu. Datanglah melawat saya tahun depan!
Terima kasih Ya Allah kerana telah menunjukkan betapa manisnya Ramadhan.

Mungkin aku yang bercerita ini yang rasa kemanisannya.
Aku berharap kalian yang pernah merasainya, well, merasainya lagi.. :)

Assalamualaikum & Auf wiedersehen!

Unlucky!

Pukul 3 pagi.. .

Unbelievable.
Midterms yang macam fish.

Kenapa semuanya berlalu begitu cepat sekali? -.-'

Tak sempat nak buat apa-apa pun.

Nak study sikit pun tak kesampaian.

Kerja lain pula yang dapat dibuat. Yeaah

Banyaknya aku merapu dalam test yang ada.

Sekurang-kurangnya lepas 14hb 8 ni aku dah tak terbeban sangat.

InsyaAllah, segalanya diminta dipermudahkan.

Dapatkah DL sem ni?

Tanyalah diri sendiri.

Auf Wiedersehen!

Storyboard

A storyboard

Lagu dah ada.

Jalan cerita dah ada.

Pelakonnya pula.. ?

Di Perlis lah pulak.

Takut tak sempat siap.

Due date 9 Sept.

Tak bleh blah.

(Tarikh manis zaman sekolah menengah 2009 dulu.)

Aishh!! !

Nak set appointment?

Susahnya.. .

Patutkah aku buat sendiri? Huh

Tukar cerita lagi. Cerita yang asalnya patut genre jiwang.

Tapi sekarang dah kena tukar genre sepenuhnya ke genre realiti.

Terpaksalah.. . Fuuu~

I have no choice but to proceed this new story.

Aku boleh.

Dengan lagu itu?

Aku boleh.

Aku akan jadi pelakonnya sendiri.

Aku akan buat segalanya seperti realiti.

Aku ingin percaya yang aku boleh.

Kenalah ASAP. Kena lamar pelakonnya cepat!

Auf Wiedersehen. Dah siap n send nnti aku tunjuk la.

In class! Stay in school!

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, permudahkanlah urusanku!

Forgiving Someone

Forgiving someone?

It is easy to do so, if it is for the first time.
But no if that person have done the same thing over and over again.

What worst, when that person have crossed the line.
Things that have made me lose all the trust I put at the last apology.

"Aku dah tawar hati.. ."

When the same person ask for another yet another forgiveness?

Tawarnya aku hendak memaafkan kesalahan orang-orang itu.
Kerana aku tahu aku akan disakiti lagi.

"What's the use?"

Aku tidak seperti baginda Rasulullah SAW.
Aku tidak pernah dilepar batu atau diugut bunuh serta diancam pelbagai2 ancaman.

Kenapa begitu susah untuk aku maafkan orang sekelilingku walau kali ketiga sedangkan baginda boleh siap mendoakan mereka?

"Aku manusia. Aku perempuan. Aku lemah."

Mengapa mereka tidak nampak betapa lemahnya aku?
Honestly, it is so hard for me to build up my confidence after I lose it all in a blink of an eye.
Apatah lagi, tiada keluarga disisi.

Aku tak rugi apa-apa sekiranya aku memaafkan sesiapa pun.
So I guess, biarlah aku maafkan mereka walau setawar manapun keadaan hati aku sekarang.

Biarlah aku terus disakiti.
Tak apa. Biarlah. Biarlah.
Buatlah apa yang kau suka.

For You I Will

Miss H & Professor P

Dear Pencil. I know I have seen you somewhere before. You told me the same thing.
But where? When? None of us know, or sure.

Huh.. .

I remember the time I have been disgrace, you have made me forget my anger.
I don't know, but you have made my heart feel, so calm.. .

I am gonna 'draw' you.

You.. . The person I called Pencil.

I will do my job perfectly, for you.
When I am done with my job, I will help you.
I don't want you to skip your task.
I promise you I'll help.

As long as you're beside me.
Just because, Pencil.
You are someone who always be able to kill the fire inside me.

I know I have seen you before.
And now that you're in front of me.
I will be your 'pencil' too.

Semester 4 (Weekend)

(A very old post I found today. Hewww)

After Vacation

Samstag und Sonntag. Saturday and Sunday, 10-17 June 2012.

The first week in my 4th semester. So far so good. Nice lecturers, same classmates but fewer members. FT, where else.. :) Congratulations. To other people like me, let's proceed with our mission.

But throughout these week.. .

Dealing with attitude and behavior of some people around me? That's just sick! Hard to believe what happened. But not all, I said 'some'. I don't know, but I don't think that I'll be able to deal with their attitude anymore. IT IS A BIG PROBLEM TO ME. I don't want to see those rude behavior next week. I am gonna do something about it.

Not just that, I managed to borrow some time to attend few activities and there, I gained knowledge. You know what they say, Man Jadda Wa Jadda

Err.. .

After reading a blog written by someone I know, I realized something. I know it's good to tell someone the truth, and I will do so in a better way. Thanks to Him for giving me a guide so I don't do something crazy.

So I have finished doing few things and so far, I managed to get things done neatly. I guess I have to wait and see next week.