Semester 5 Break

Assalamualaikum.. .

Haaa.. . What a relief! I have finished my 5th semester in my studies. One semester to go and I am free! What I face most of the time during this semester? So many. Good things and bad things.. . Unpredictable, always happened, bro. Sick!

Lecturers, alhamdulillah, so far I still managed to stay away from trouble. But yeaaa.. . I am so unlucky his semester when it comes to health. I am sick since the early semester. Me and my roomate. Both of us got gastric and affect our performance in class. I often absent most classes and especially a morning class on Friday. I absent without MC and I didn't informed my lecturer that I am sick those time.

It may only sound like an excuse. So it is better if I don't say anything.

Going through the subjects.. :

1.Advertising: My, my. I've changed my mind. Being an advertiser is hard. But I learned new things and yeah. I don't want to work in this field.. :p

2.Event Management: I feel like a tourism student. I love this subject and I don't know who to blame for why our lecturer's attitude towards us changed. She looked like an artist 'Fazura', except for her professionalism in teaching us have made us 'lost behind'. Or event 'Earth Rehab 2013' is.. . is.. . Nevermind.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=vXteKX7tCDQ

3.Entrepreneurship: I don't do much in this assignment 'Goat-Cha' (about goat and frozen lamb), but I am very thankful that during the biggest presentation, we managed to grab our panels' heart and I am very sorry and I wish I could do anything, anything at all for my fellow teammates who do all the hard-work  I am lazy and stupid and I am sure that they won't take me in their group next semester.. :'(

4.Communication Research: I am scared of this woman. I dreamt about her, asking me to pass up the assignment. With that xxxs of her. I am scared to talk to her in class but alhamdulillah I am happy to learn this subject. Approching people and stuff.. :)

5.Broadcasting: This semester, this subject used so much money. And also there are so many misunderstandings and fights happening. Most of it, probably caused by me? I don't know. I don't want to blame anyone, as everybody at their worst time. I am thankful to Allah that after the shooting and fight ends, everyone are being nicer and we are living in the harmonious anyone can only imagine. Still, the lecturer still don't like us (?).

6.Economics: Yes, I have failed this subject an d I had the best lecturer ever. He teach us, with love. InsyaAllah, I will pass this subject and hoped to see him again. But outside of academic.. :)

Friendship and friend and just-like-that relationship. I don't know.. .

Oh yes, I lived with 2 juniors in the hostel. Linda and Aida. Office Management and Art and Design student. 3 of us in that cute room, with the best view.

From this window, I can see that haunted water tank.. :) Sadly I don't have the photos of those wonderful girls. I would like to take them for a ride next semester. With Mai, of course.. :)

I don't fight with anyone. I don't want to stay angry with anyone.

May the result of my final exam changed my destiny.. :) Aamiin.. :)

Study Week Story

Assalamualaikum and good day alles.

I am fine. Danke.

As usual, study week is the week where all the students sacrificed their free times to study like hell.

Me? Not really. I did study but I prefer to call it study smart than study hard. I can't force myself to study if I can't understand any of it. If I force myself, wouldn't it be wasting time? Gain pain.

I am sorry dear parents. I can't force myself to be like my sister. I came here to study and not to be crazy. We talked about this, do we?

I am sorry for all the money you spend for my future. If you want to take my bike Austin away, I will let you do so.

I spend it on food and other things that deals with my course. I am not mad if you said that I spent it for fun or wasting it like there's no tomorrow. Because it wasn't true :(

I just used the very small amount of it over thing that helped me to release tension. No, not cigarettes or drugs or other negative things.

Alright, you want me to gain diploma and get a job. It is only matter of time. I promise I'll do what I can. I may be weak in academic but you do know that I could do better in something else comparing to others. Right?

Everybody, stop pushing me or expecting too much from me. Because I am not like the others.

Sorry I made you worried about my friend. We didn't do the lovey-dovey thingys. Believe me, he NEVER stand in my way when it comes to studying. He's in 'another section'. He's just my assignment partner.

You'll see, family! You'll see, peers! You'll see!

Luahan Masscommers

Assalamualaikum.. .

Aku terbaca suatu status yang agak menarik untuk dibaca oleh orang orang judgemental terhadap pelajar Masscomm diluar sana.

Bacalah.. . Thanks to saudara http://tongkatjibril.blogspot.com/

Yeah I like!

Jadi, apakah pandangan kalian? Ini juga tertulis didalam hati aku, cuma aku tak tahu menulis seperti senior Masscomm aku ini.. . He's the best pentarbiyah I know in UiTM ini. TERBAIK!

Auf Wiedersehen!

Unlucky!

Pukul 3 pagi.. .

Unbelievable.
Midterms yang macam fish.

Kenapa semuanya berlalu begitu cepat sekali? -.-'

Tak sempat nak buat apa-apa pun.

Nak study sikit pun tak kesampaian.

Kerja lain pula yang dapat dibuat. Yeaah

Banyaknya aku merapu dalam test yang ada.

Sekurang-kurangnya lepas 14hb 8 ni aku dah tak terbeban sangat.

InsyaAllah, segalanya diminta dipermudahkan.

Dapatkah DL sem ni?

Tanyalah diri sendiri.

Auf Wiedersehen!

Storyboard

A storyboard

Lagu dah ada.

Jalan cerita dah ada.

Pelakonnya pula.. ?

Di Perlis lah pulak.

Takut tak sempat siap.

Due date 9 Sept.

Tak bleh blah.

(Tarikh manis zaman sekolah menengah 2009 dulu.)

Aishh!! !

Nak set appointment?

Susahnya.. .

Patutkah aku buat sendiri? Huh

Tukar cerita lagi. Cerita yang asalnya patut genre jiwang.

Tapi sekarang dah kena tukar genre sepenuhnya ke genre realiti.

Terpaksalah.. . Fuuu~

I have no choice but to proceed this new story.

Aku boleh.

Dengan lagu itu?

Aku boleh.

Aku akan jadi pelakonnya sendiri.

Aku akan buat segalanya seperti realiti.

Aku ingin percaya yang aku boleh.

Kenalah ASAP. Kena lamar pelakonnya cepat!

Auf Wiedersehen. Dah siap n send nnti aku tunjuk la.

In class! Stay in school!

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, permudahkanlah urusanku!

Semester 4 (Weekend)

(A very old post I found today. Hewww)

After Vacation

Samstag und Sonntag. Saturday and Sunday, 10-17 June 2012.

The first week in my 4th semester. So far so good. Nice lecturers, same classmates but fewer members. FT, where else.. :) Congratulations. To other people like me, let's proceed with our mission.

But throughout these week.. .

Dealing with attitude and behavior of some people around me? That's just sick! Hard to believe what happened. But not all, I said 'some'. I don't know, but I don't think that I'll be able to deal with their attitude anymore. IT IS A BIG PROBLEM TO ME. I don't want to see those rude behavior next week. I am gonna do something about it.

Not just that, I managed to borrow some time to attend few activities and there, I gained knowledge. You know what they say, Man Jadda Wa Jadda

Err.. .

After reading a blog written by someone I know, I realized something. I know it's good to tell someone the truth, and I will do so in a better way. Thanks to Him for giving me a guide so I don't do something crazy.

So I have finished doing few things and so far, I managed to get things done neatly. I guess I have to wait and see next week.

Semester 4

Ok, so I have about few hours more, until I have no choice but to go back where I shouldn't belong. Where else. You I Tea M.

Anyway, I would like to give my highest gratitude to Allah SWT for giving me a chance to live again and again. Mom dad, bros sis, families relations, buddies friends. You all brighten my holidays. Thank you so much!

So few hours ago, my dear roommate Ayu called me. Oh why, I missed her so much. She said that she have done some 'adjustment' to our room. Yea.. . The room do need a new look. I must and I will convinced everyone to live with the new 'deal'!

I am happy happy happy because that day was a day when me, my sis and my dad were going for some serious shopping. As for me, I got 2 new clothes. What a day. Not forgetting our new hobbies. New and old movies.. . (My parents didn't allow us to buy pirated CDs.) They bought 7 DVDs. We were planning to buy 1 more later; Schindler's List.

I only watched 1 of the movies. Excellent!

Also, we were home at 1937hrs, and I am right! My mattress and a pillow I washed this morning has successfully dried. Sorry Ayu. Your pillow is still 'too heavy'. Don't mad, my 'MH' pillow didn't dry too. Fair enough. Lol!

Sadly, those days have ended. Back to my 2nd life. Being a student again. I hope 'things' between me and the uni's employees will end soon. I don't wanna go home just yet. I've done packing my bags at 2300hrs.

I guess the fun days are being paused now. It'll be resume, not today, tomorrow or next week. No. Months later, I hope so.. .

Alright okay thank you. Thanks for reading this sad and dull story of mine. It's hard for me to spend some times on the internet now. It's fine.

I got my class timetable. Again, thanks to my friend! Well, you know.. . I'd better, get goin'. Back to the books. Please pray for the best for me. Thanks! I love all the people I love! I love them until I die! Mak abah Leia sayang mak abah! :)

Assalamualaikum WBT & Auf Wiedersehen.

Result Semester 4

Result dah keluar! Takut-takuttt~!

Alhamdulillah. Inilah masa yang ditunggu-tunggu oleh setiap pelajar UiTM SeMalaysia. Result final Mac 2012. Aku pun tertunggu-tunggu.. . Sampai termimpi-mimpi.

Well.

Result kali ni memang dah boleh diagak. Sangat teruk. Semua ok 'kot' kecuali 2 yang betul2 mengecewakan aku. Memang tak boleh pakai la!

Aku datang UiTM untuk belajar. Like I told my parents. Biarlah. Kesian pointer aku. Dah cantik2 boleh fasttrack, tp tak kesampaian. Fish!

Berikut adalah review tentang subjek2 available:

English Academic Purposes
-Dari sem 1 sampai sem 3 ni, BEL aku ni tak pernah2 nak naik. Straight B+ setiap sem. Alhamdulillah tak turun. Huhuhu.. :p No more BEL after this!

Instructional Communication
-Tak sangka der! Alhamdulillah! Aku dah usaha dan aku dapat apa yang termampu. AKU SANGAT BERSYUKUR! Aku ingat aku akan repeat subjek ni.. =.= Selamat~

Introduction to News writing and Reporting
-Jumpa lagi sem depan, Miss Syafe! :)

Islam and Communication
-Alhamdulillah. Terima kasih ustazah! Subjek ni adalah subjek yang mempunyai gred terbaik berbanding subjek lain2. Ustazah, plan kita masih berjalan ye :D <3

Chess
-Sir dah penat dengar aku meroyan kot. Tu pasal aku pass! :3 Hehe

Principle of Psychology
-Aku paling suka subjek ni! Aku sangat suka pada Madam! Kalaulah carry mark aku elok. Madam mungkin akan bagi A. Wee~!

Public Relations
-Aku dan rakan2 seperjuangan dikhianat. Setiap kali kelas Miss Mai je aku C+. Sori Miss, sy ni ha yang bermasalahnya. Aku rasa mesti ramai yang se-gred aku. Sabar guys. Sem depan kita hentam 'dia'. Siap!

Perutusan:
Terima kasih yang tak terhingga kepada pensyarah2 yang telah top-up ilmu saya dari semester 1. Saya minta ampun dan maaf andai Encik dan Puan dan Cik sekalian terguris dengan sikap saya yang kurang matang. Tak perlulah berasa kecewa jikalau gred saya tidak memuaskan. Kalian telah berjaya sebenarnya. Berjaya menyampaikan ilmu yang tidak ternilai kepada kami. Bukan setakat ilmu akademik, malah, ilmu yang kami pelajari dari pengalaman dan hakikat hidup yang dikongsikan dan telah sedikit demi sedikitnya mematangkan kami. TERIMA KASIH PENSYARAH.

p/s: Macam mana aku nak terangkan hal ni pada mak ngan abah. Masak!
Auf Wiedersehen!

Ingat Allah SWT selalu. Jangan lupa Allah SWT. Tak de nilai pun walau DL kau dapat kalau kau lupa pada Dia.

Semester 3 Break

Once upon a time in my 3rd semester.. .

"Full of regrets. As usual. Aku bukanlah hamba yang baik."

(Gambaran; air mata penyesalan)

Nothing much I can say.

So many new things happened.

Whether I like it or not, I just got to face it.

Most of the time, I intend to say this to some people.

"Go ahead! Judge me if it pleases you."

"Fish you!"

"Fish&Chips!"

(Dan lain-lain.)

Tak apa. Rasulullah SAW banyak bersabar. I can too.. :)

Sem ni, banyak perubahan yang berlaku. Ini yang di-share, whether you give a damn or not.. . Hehe.. . To make it simpler, I use this kind of method:

Clothing:

My attire doesn't change much. Since my mom bought me a new white tudung, I wear it everytime and ignore what people want to say about my white obsession. It is better and I always think of my parents everytime I wear it.

Food&Drinks:

I can't eat MSG anymore. If not I end up being sick. This is a sign. Don't feed me with something that is 'cheap' and cikai. Since then, I eat balance food on the time I eat the MSG thingy. That's mean, more money used and healthier health ;)

MySpace:

I don't iron my clothes because I used Downy. It doesn't wrinkled bro! I used the time for ironing clothes to sit longer to seek for 'the truth' :)

Lecturers:

Alhamdulillah, all nice and I respect them so much for their patience to face us. To Ustazah Noraini Ismail, I hope that our 'little' deal will stay on until I grad :)

Prestasi:

I still struggle in class. Don't stop me. Things happened in the class this sem, will not happen again in my 4th sem. I WILL MAKE SURE!

Classes:

Di Kayangan. Fakulti atas bukit curam. Alhamdulillah Austin with me ;)

Faculty:

Dah tak amik port, but seriously now I am proud to be a masscommer.

Persatuan:

Alhamdulillah murah rezeki. Promoted.

Persatuan 2:

I will balance my time for this one too. I blame the timing.

Tests:

So-so. I will do better. Salah aku sendiri, tak pandai bahagi masa :(

Carry Marks:

Buat malu keluarga. Sem 4 nanti takkan terjadi! Fish! Salah kau la!

Final Exams:

Dipermudahkan. Alhamdulillah. I remember my 88, 143 and my Psychology exam. My sweet boy. Kamu selalu ada.. :) Aww

The Crazy Moment:

1L of MochaLatte. Yes I didn't sleep, studying Psychology, my favorite subject.

Friendship:

Alhamdulillah.. . Dalam usaha mencari sahabat ke syurga Ilahi.. :)

Enemy:

Tak ada. Ini bukan sekolah menengah. Ada pula yang memusuhi aku. Aku tak tanggung pengajian kamu pun? Weirdo.

Love Story:

I told my dad.

Crush:

Always on people I will not be with. Apa pun ta boleh.

As the conclusion, yang buruk aku buang, yang cantik aku simpan dan lap2 lagi. Allah SWT bagi aku banyak masa. Aku akan manfaatkan mulai detik ini. Siapa yang halang aku sem depan, mesti diberi 'treatment' :)

Sekianlah. Semester 3 yang masam manis manis. I'll make it manis manis manis.

"InsyaAllah.. . Aku boleh dekan sem 4 nanti!"

Semester 2 Break

Some of the things are changed, and I realized it was my fault for being too 'preoccupied'. I really want to apologize to all of them. Other things, I am not sure too. About studies, improved I guess.. :)

Yes. Thanks to Allah for giving me another chance to improve my studies. Previously, I only get 3.25 for my CGPA. That is low. I blame my Mass Media and co-curriculum subject. P.A.R.T, Why? Because the chapters involves are the 12 and 13. I read again from 1-11. Haven't got chance to study the last two because time for study is up. Yes I haven't sleep until the day for that exam.

Lesson for me here, always study and not remembering only for exams. And, the co-curriculum that time is the Kesatria Negara. More like army stuffs and compulsory for part 1 students like me. By the time for the physical test, I fell ill. All so sudden!! ! That is not my day. 0 mark for me. Thanks a lot you evil S*%#!! So I just rest with some other mulut celupars beside me! Doh!

Alhamdulillah I am not alone. I got Dila with me that time. With all these lame reasons of mine, I will make sure it won't happen again. Like the Malay says "jangan biar pisang berbuah kali kedua". Shame on me too. Embarrassing result! Sorry parents!

And now.

I manage to improve my attitude. It is fine to be alone and not being with other people beside me. I got two malaikat and Allah with me all the time. I can go anywhere I want without being controlled and I feel much more peace. Still, I want to hang out with them. I like my classmates so much. But I don't really have a choice. My dad didn't send me there for free. So you know what I mean. Please understand.. :)

Oh ok. Then I go back to the way it should be. Everything seems easy to me. Not to mention the stressful time to cover all chapters. This must be the shortest semester ever! Tup tap tup tap, after the joy and efforts we all gave, it finally ends. The last paper ends in the 30th September 2011. Me and my roommates are able to do our room clearance early, so we can gettahellouttahere as fast as possible. No more bed sheet, being washed, so I keep my mattress folded in half. There's no way I am sleeping on that naked bed. So I decide to bring a flat mattress in part 3. Not only better but comfortable. So that time, I just have to be patience.. :) Patience is a virtue!

On the last day of the exam and in the campus, I wear a black ZNK, khaki Padini and green tudung. And still, my black Power sandal. The paper is not bad. Only my pens are making my life harder. I accidentally left my favorite and special Faber-Castell pens on my working station. Then I used my precious Stabilo Performer, the samples. Well, they saved me. Danke schon, Schwan!

Back to my room, on the last day of this semester, I finished packing all my stuff and wait for my brother to fetch me.. . Too bad! I hate putting someone in trouble because of me. Since that time is still morning (exam starts at 0830hours), I listen to my mid. music. Then I fell asleep, with earphone, I barely heard my brother calling me. He's on his way. Oh dear the room is so pleasant, with the very good temperature and weather.. . Why today.. . Huh. I was the 4th person who leaves the chamber. Some other thing, and then I leave. Take care you all.

Then me and my brother are going to eat. We came to a wrong place. The worst place ever! No water to wash hands, lots of flies and stinks! I was a fool, I ordered the foods too early! Fool me! As usual, nasi putih and tom yam. I asked for seafood tom yam. Hrrghh I'll post about this story in my upcoming post.

Terserempak Dila kita yang berbaju Dang Wangi.. :3 Then we had a little chat, and we leave the dump. Then I noticed a huge garbage can. F^$*! I go back to my brother's house, and then my dad fetch me home. Two trips. I am a trouble maker. Alhamdulillah, I arrived at home safely.. .

SO THEN MY HOLIDAY STARTS!

p/s: I will wait for my final exam result for this semester in the 4th November 2011!

Career Prospect Exhibition

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UySMpEVsqdA

Career Prospect Exhibition or CAPE is an event made by part 2 students from Mass Communication. This event are related to our CMP281(communication management policy) subject and includes about 20% to our assignment marks.

Each class got 3 booth and it needs to be decorate according to what they got. Like my class, we got the Office Management. Other got Art&Design, Tourism, Business and more. So we do the Event Management and other 2 related with OM. We dressed in office wear.

The decoration and stuffs are made by them. Chairs, mat, lampu lip lap, candles and more. I do almost nothing. Just the words above our booth and do whatever to make the booth clean. Not to mention playing sabotage. Hahhaa very nice. The balloon will not explode.

Songs? This is my chance! I played Ridge Racer type.4 Direct Audio. It was the best idea to do. Not only I played my favorite music loudly, I also shared the music with them.

I don't want to talk much. Hopefully these photos are enough to show some of the things. I don't have much photos and it is not mine.. . One day I'll bring my own camera.. .

Launching ceremony about 8.30 a.m.

Our glamorous booth.

The texts.

Our class members.

Peeps giving some information and explain more about our booth to the new rector (red)and our new coordinator (checkered). The woman with yellow file is our CMP281 lecturer, Madam Raihan. She always support me when I fall.. :') Hope to have her for the next sem!

"Good" :)

Then the time goes by. It will be like a short story if I wrote rest of em. Other students seems jealous because our booth got place to sleep. About foods and stuffs. Yeah, I was very angry with a friend of mine. He works at the registration table. We had a conversation. Then he said he has to go to the toilet. So I helped him watching the table and I want to ciao to eat after he return. He never return. Damn it. I took his work pulak dah. He sat in his booth. Ouit! How dare you. Exploring other booths and more.

Finally, it all ends.

So soll es bleiben. I like them so much!

Posters and videos made by my classmate, Qamarul a.k.a Botak and friends. I can see that everybody was stunned when they see the video. Brilliant job, right? :)

THEN I FAINTED AFTER MAGHRIB AND WAKE UP AT 5.A.M.

and fever. Just look at those air conds in our booth.

"This event are better than last year's" said the Coordinator, Mass Communication and Media Studies.. .

COM163

COM163 is the course code for 'writing for the mass media'.

I don't have any interest in this subject. I don't want to be a reporter.

I don't want to do stuff that have connections with journalism.

What can I do? I have to learn about this subject.

Alhamdulillah, the final exam for this subject just end yesterday (10 September 2011).

The only thing I like about this subject is when it comes to the part where I can be an Art&Design (AD) student.

Yes, although my hope to be an AD student tak kesampaian, at least I can feel like one.

Since when I become an AD student? When my class have to do an advertising for our last assignment. Comparing to other classes, our assignment title is the hardest I think. Some classes got foods and cosmetics. We got cars? Oh dear.. .

How do I look for the idea for the design? Lucky my family always drive to Nilai, the highway that got so many billboards about cars. Those are my muse. More like plagiarism :D Hehehe

I will not give up before I try. How hard can I find the information? I got my partner who can help. Meet my partner, Hafiz. Lucky me I got to do the assignment with him. He is a very nice and calm person. Good enough to be my buddy :) Beside our problems, we work together and manage to finish the assignment. Yes it is hard because we can't see each other due to Eid-Ul-Fitr holidays. Then, this is the result of our advertisement.

Am I qualified to be an official AD student? Hihi

Forget to mention. Both of us are AD students in our Mass Communication (MC) class. Coincidence.. . It feels good. My hobby have helped me to make this advertisment to finished in a very short time. Thanks to my sister for installing the Photoshop. Lucky me I start learning to use Photoshop since I was in middle school.

Danke schön to my favorite channel, Deutsche Welle that helped me to choose a car.

I watched Drive It! and look for the latest car. I found Audi A6 Avant.. . We also have write about the car at the back of the design. It has been submitted successfully.. . Alhamddulillah.. .

Also, this is the video of the car. Curious? You'll love this car.. .

http://www.google.com.my/url?sa=t&source=web&cd=3&sqi=2&ved=0CCQQtwIwAg&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DmwLv1JPa10s&ei=At9rTrPjGcXsrAe-ncDHBQ&usg=AFQjCNHJFQ0bn_dSjIkfFcHm40QWbRAVMQ

Guten Tag, Alles!

Fasting 2011

There are few days left and I was just starting to talk about it. How slow. Hihi.. . By the way you all, this year fasting month different that before because this year, I am fasting at my hostel.

Rezeki melimpah-ruah dan urusan dipermudahkan.

I like them all so much, in this month, everything's just ausgezeichnet. All the study matters are going perfectly. Emm yeah. Thanks to Allah.. . Also, I was able to do my mid terms perfectly.. :)

Classmates.. . This day, all of us are simply cooler!

Usually, my parents will cook and we eat together and have a little conversation after that. I miss it! This year, I can't cook, everything just instant or not just food I bought after breaking my fast the last day. And then I don't sleep in the morning like I always did.

Every time I have to go to the bazaar in the campus, usually I bought the same Tom Yam from the same restaurant. Not only it is in a very reasonable price, it is also taste very delicious. What restaurant, I will talk about it later. The other time, I will by other things.

I hate the new prices. 2 for 5. Ah sick! I don't buy kek batik and tepung pelita for this year!! :( Except once from my friend, Suraya. The taste are still same like the one me and Dila had when we sleepover at her house when we were in the school year.

Bazaar sampai ke jalan Padang Kawad.. !

Our drinks.

Me, Ayu, Kak Illa, Kak Ika, Iera and Bella.

But life is like a wheel, sometimes diatas then turun ke bawah.. :'( This is life! I have to face it!

Last week, I accidentally lost control and I use my money to by cookies. I can't stand the look of those little treats. So I ordered it and the leftover money are used to pay unplanned stuff. Yeah that is right, I don't have any money anymore. Pay for the car and the food is no biggie.

This is the unplanned thing. Berbuka dengan roommates, photo taken by Ayu.. .

2-3 days, I break my fast with instant noodles from my stocks. My last stocks, I open the last two instant vegetable soup because it was a big day that day and I need enough energy. Sadly, after preparing that soup and go out to wash my hands for a while, one of my roomate, Kaka gave me a plate of rice.

Oh dear I she gave me earlier, I could cook that soups for the upcoming 2 days. I have no choice but to finished all of it. Yeah, too late.. . Hmm.. .

Few days before today, I seriously ran out of money. All that left is to pay all the cookies. Not too much, I ordered just two. Growling stomach.. . When the Azam Maghrib berkumandang, all of my roommates are eating, I don't join them, instead I just lay down after eating my leftover chocolates.

How sad, I cried a little and think about hunger and I feel the sorrow of the fasting people in the country like the Africa. Those skinny children and family, death because of hunger and more. I repents and pray to Allah that I will try to change my habit, to waste money over food.

Actually it is fine because all the food I bought are never being wasted. The excessive amount of foods are the reasons here. Then one of them, Lala lend me some money. I am so shy to ask for money from them, and my parents. They worked hard to earn money and I just gobbled up everything. I have to learn this lesson! And things just happen again!

Two days later I just get back from coordinator, library, presentation and coordinator again. Tiring day with no money. And also, that is the time to pay for the cookies. Lucky me Allah grants my wish. I only get one of my cookies because the suppliers are out of stocks. So I just pay for one and got extra money. Alhamdulillah.

What a challenging holy month. Iman pun teruji. Every Wednesdays, I saw him and seems like he noticed me as well, so obvious this last 2 days, the way he looked at me and what happened in my class. Ya Allah.. . Astarghfirullah al-Azim.. , I can feel sin! ">_<`#

Ok, that's all for now. I refuse to talk more about it.

Now, I am at home. A very huge thanks to my buddy Dila for letting me join her to go home. After CMP281 class, I fell asleep and woke again at 1 something, itu pun sebab dia call. Lack of rest, packing baranglah. Sedap tido tepi bear Iera. But ending up with me being chased and blackmailed by her friend, Axxx. Darn.

At home now, not so free, assignments still with me. How disturbing! Well, I am at home now. More things to come, bring it on! I will start everything with Basmallah :)

See you next year, Ramadhan!

Hello again UiTM

Good day! I feel quite tense. I don't know why but I believe I could be better this semester.

I've decided to change a little about myself, first I will try to change my appearance. Wow, when I looked back at my photos when I was in the first semester, that is quite childish. So, I don't use the clothes again. This time, I believe, I could look more mature.

Ouit. I don't care about my look actually, but people always view someone by the look first and not the kinship in that someone. It is not fair but this is life and I have no choice but just go with the flow.. . Hmm.. .

I go back there with less junks and I only bring things that I use. Banyak juga sampah aku bawa sem lepas. Huh. Life must go on. I need to show myself more. I will study harder. Seriously, I hate my pointer last semester. 3.++. All because of subject COM161 a.k.a Mass Media. It's fine. Lesson for me.

I go to Dewan Syahbandar, do the what I suppose to do and just go back to my old room. It is empty and I thought that I was the only one that arrived first. But I see luggage. Then I just unpack my things with the help from my mom and then we go out to Masjid Tanah to buy things. What I bought is a new pair of white slippers. Why? I lost another one at home.

Time moves so fast and mom and dad left me here. Hope they're just fine at home with my siblings. I will miss my mom's cooking and all of them at home. So, I was alone in the room. I waited for my other roommates to get home but they never showed up. Shockingly, they returned days later. Oh, they was sleeping at a hotel with one of my roommate's relation. Untunglah!

Then they all returned and all I can say that time, 'here we go again!'

I will keep my promise and try my best to avoid problems. I will listen to every single advice given by my family. But dad, I am sorry because I can't stop wasting money over foods. Just let me the Non-Resident@NR and I will cook myself and try to keep money.

To my classmates, let's be cool with each other yeah? No more rudeness or arrogance to each other. We have to look at each other's faces until we grad. Hopefully we can be good friends and succeed together, play less, learn more. Remember our parent's effort to let us study here. They use money and not leaf. Untuk ingatan bersama.

Yeah, no doubt, we will respect strangers and be rude to them once we get to know them.

(statement pedas)

To my new lecturers, pantun untukmu:

Buah cempedak di luar pagar,

Ambil galah tolong jolokkan;

Saya budak baru belajar,

Kalau salah tolong tunjukkan.

Good day and always remember, everyday is a new day!

Semester 1 Break

The room is empty and I will make sure I will not bring junks anymore.. . See ya fools! Haha jk!

What did at home, sick. I spend most of my time, chill and cook. I feel so alive at home.. . Cooking and hobbies, hang out with Sya and Dila, shopping and go out with family.. .

That is a one relaxing month. No books, no works, nothing. My family just want me to stay at home. Be safe and relax. No tense.. .

I cooked everyday in the holiday.. . Yum :9

I think I just want to sit and relax.. .

-END OF SEMESTER 1-

Semester 1

I DON'T KNOW MYSELF ANYMORE BECAUSE I'VE LOST IT

I AM FICKLE AND TREAT PEOPLE DEPENDING ON WHO THEY ARE

EVERYTHING GETS HARD BECAUSE I MADE IT HARDER

I ONLY LIVE WITH PEOPLE FROM THE ASSOCIATION

I HATE MY SELF THIS SEMESTER BECAUSE ALL I DO IS CRY AND MUMBLE

I BLOW OFF MY LAST CHANCE BY REPEATING MY STUPIDITY

I ACT STUPIDLY BECAUSE I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING

I HATE IT WHEN THE SENIORS BULLIED US AND DON'T LET US EAT ANYWHERE WE WANT

I WANT TO START AGAIN BECAUSE I LIVING IN THE PRETENDING WORLD

GOOD THING WE MEET PRIME MINISTER FEW TIMES AND JOINED A HISTORICAL MOMENT. BEING A MASSCOMM STUDENTS HERE, WE ARE LIKE ANAK KESAYANGAN

I DONE MY ASSIGNMENT ALONE BECAUSE THEY ALL FULL OR MAYBE DOESN'T WANT ME OR WHAT

I AM NOT ME AND I AM SO REGRET! I WASTED ALL MY MONEY OVER FOODS

LA LA LA F ME I PRETEND TO BE SOMEONE I AM NOT AND CONGRATULATION I'VE RUINED MY LAST CHANCE!

Bismillahirahmanirahim. Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, aku akan berubah menjadi diri sendiri di Semester 2. Bantulah hamba-Mu ini kerana sesungguhnya aku lemah. From this moment, I will be ME.. .

New Beginning in University

2 days before we sleep in Melaka, then on the registration day the people are too much. Then we go to the dataran and get the ?? form and room number. Dila got another college. I ask the uncle "boleh tak saya nak bilik lain? :)" Not a chance I believe. Those people smiled and ok I feel embarrassed. Later, I realized that the uncle is actually the Campus Director a.k.a Rector.. #o_0#

Then punggah barang to my new room. It is quite comfortable. Tiled and the ground floor, close to the laundromat, tv and mesin gedegang. Side to Wi-Fi too. This is the best room of the college. 6 people per room including me. Luckily the room is huge comparing to other. Gosh they all look mature. I am shy!

All the first week we go for our orientation and all. So tiring. We only sleep for 2 hours. I tersengguk-sengguk hah dalam Masjid Al-Hikmah and Dewan Bendahara. The dining hall, a very long queue. The food is not that nice, I prefer the other dining hall, so I sneak to the other place, with Dila. Hihi the food are much better.

The second day is unforgettable. When taking the pass photo, gosh I hate it. I am not ready, I was about to close my mouth okay?! I see teeth! I looked ridiculous and funny and WEIRD! When I asked him to take new photo, I know exactly why he refused! Dude that was mean!

Then, to the DB again. Bla bla bla and done. Shoot! How there someone pull out my hand for election for Penghuluwati and stuff like that. Haih. Dahlah kalah, pastu tak pandai bercakap. Masak aku kena gelaklah nanti.

Glad it's over! We all pun getta hellout. Then I saw a guy talking on the phone. My heart goes dup dap dup dap! I walk further and could it be? Then it is almost dark, I waited for that guy to come out from the dining hall. I ran to him (our secret dialogues) Then we left and azan Maghrib berkumandang.. . I pray to Allah and thank him so much!

The next day, all almost same and still tiring. I got class D. Then I be the class rep and easily gets nervous. Shoot I fooled my self! I failed to do the works. Then when I remember again, I am weird, arrogant and NOT ME! I don't know why but I would like to start over again. I was a fool.

Hello, my name is Saleha, and I am not a nerd. WTF! Hahaha look at me can't stand the heat lol what a loser! L

Everything is just new. I always pray for better tomorrows. InsyaAllah.. .

Temuduga Universiti

What 'ich hab gewonnen' huh? Yeah tu baru tawaran. Now is time for the interview. Interview 24 October 2010 (Transair) tu len, ni mungkin lagi len. Oh dear I am so thrilled!

I wear a simple red baju kurung with white tudung, also, I am wearing an ugly shoe. OMG how can I choose such an ugly shoe? Huh what a waste! I go to the Mass Communication 2nd intake in UiTM Shah Alam, the HQ. So many students and panels. I got Panel #10. There are lists of names for the new intake at a board. Ahh I am proud to see my name there. Then I quickly look for a name, not mine but my first love. Who know maybe I will see him again. Disappointingly, his name is not there. I am not going to cry. Huhuhu T_-`

Then, all of us are taken to a room for the interview. What do I bring? Pencils, pen. Pencils for drawing? LOL. We are given a paper to write essay. Oh dear. I don't have dictionary. I will try. Tup tap tup tap, it is done. Alhamdulillah. am quite relieve to see some peoples got stuck and unable to write the essay. Good thing for me, I got less rivals.

Then my name are in the first 15-20 students to be in the next interview. First writing, second, speaking with panels. Whut? Not all come that day and there are not more than 10 people with me. We walk to the room, wait outside. We talked and see each other's SPM results. Wow they are outstanding. I feel so shy. They all clever.

From hundreds of names, I am in Panel 10, but I am also the first to be called?! I was number one! From hundreds! Must be my day. So then I walked into the room and left them. There was two people. Man and woman. They speak English? Alhamdulillah I manage to speak very well and I can answer all the questions they asked.

Before it ends, they asked me, 'do you want to ask any question?'. They asked me few times but I said nice;y 'no, thank you, I.. . I don't have anything to ask, thank you.. :)'

AAAAAHH STUPID! WHY DIDN'T I THINK OF THAT!?

I should ask them about my essay's result. While interviewing the also mark my paper. Huu fool you should ask that. Senile me!

After that, I go out, wish them luck and go home. Waiting for the result.. :)